2012 ....Here I come!

.....And the count own had begun. Another midnight approaches, another year ends and another begins. At the end of every year I mediate on what went well, and where I made I made mistakes but when that clock strikes 12 I'm just thankful to God that another year has passes by and I've entered a new one. Every new year's eve I'm so thankful that I've made it out alive again. So many don't. Kortney Gordon, baby Sophy, Jon Sharfenberger, and so many others who are missed by loves ones tonight.... life moves on and years come and we must move on with the times. I am so thanks full for God's love and mercy. So many times he could have left me fail at school on the road and in my familial life but he spares me every time. I am so thankful to have a chance to so what is right, a new chance o might necessary changes and improve myself in order to better serve Him. I've made friends of a lifetime and learned lessons that no book could have taught and most importantly, I have realized that it is not ourselves or people we should praise but the loving God who mercy endures forever. So here's to a Happy 2012! May it be filled with, love joy, peace and with a sense of meaning. La Multi Ani!!!!! :) :) :)

P.S If this were another century...I would assume a war is going on, lol ...but the Fireworks are pretty! :)

Music=LIFE

Every day is a miracle reaffirming the truth that life is worth all the trouble. Regardless of the insanity of the day, I seem to always find an appropriate song that perfectly displays my mood and outcome of the day. So with that in mind, I aim to find a song for everyday and relate to what happened in my life that day. I don;t have a glamorous life and many times a very plain day to day routine; sleep, food, school, work, repeat. If I don't find a way to live everyday I'll never have a life so by finding a song of the day I can forever associate my memory of that day with the melody tuning me to the right frequency.

Music is so much more words, it's life set to rhythm and to find that rhythm I have to actually live. While music is not the only thread that hold life's tapestry together, singing along to a song is a sure way to remember for a minute that today is now in the past but the future is filled with God's eternal promises. Sometimes I hear a song and its seems to transcend even time and space where what I hear is what I feel and every note is a little time capsule capturing that feeling forever in notes.The song chosen for  today as a precursor to musical journal coming is a simple song by Brazilian singer Michel Telo. Now Christmas is over and once the holy season has ended. I tend to fall in a benign existence and forgetting the awesome God that guides me everyday even when I think I'm all alone. The song emphasizes that in God, we have a that guiding voice to our lives and a way to overcome. Only then can we truly live a song tuned to heaven's frequency.

The Chorus:
Portuguese:                                                 English:
A voz, que move montanhas.                     The voice, that moves mountains.
A voz, que fez abrir o mar.                         The voice, that parted the sea.
A voz, que te chama e te escolheu.             The voice that calls you and chose you.
Parabéns, você venceu.                               Congratulations, you have overcome.
Meu amigo, essa é a voz de Deus.              My friend,that is the voice of God.

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Psalm 57:7 "My heart is steadfast, O God. My heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music. Awake, my soul! Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn. I will praise you, O Lord among the nations. I will sing of You among the peoples.

Michel Teló - A voz - DVD ao Vivo - OFICIAL

É amor pra valer - Love is REAL

It started with Ai Se Eu Te Pego to Fugindinha and no E amor pra valer. Michel Telo's catchy songs are addictive and his voice are amazing!!!! I have no talent for dancing yet I found myself dancing not to a recently scored goal but to the sheer rhythm while enjoying the lyrical honey dripped upon my ears... <3 No, I am not fangirling but I must admit that for now, I can't get enough of this particular talent.  I only wish I knew Portuguese! ;)

For me, this musical discovery was made on the recommendation from a  friend who has somewhat differend tastes and music and I'm never opposed to listening to new types. This person, who recommended the song means so much to me and for a while, just talking with this friend helped ease the stress of a day where nothing went right. I trust his opinion, so when the topic of music came up,  Ai se eu te pego was recommended and from the first couple sentences I was hooked! There is nothing like a fantastic song to transcend the ordinary and create a more exciting world where human innovation not only entertains but gives some hope for the future . Maybe now I'll have more conversation topics than just the bipolar Georgia weather....(:
I have to some work to do:( but meanwhile, Love is Real and I still might learn some Portuguese!:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aZvrhK9TFo&feature=related

1 John 4:18-19

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us."

Repeat Procrastination

Today is yet another day of procrastination....stress pores out more than sweat... is it worth it??!! I want something to guide me! Take my hand and tell me to do what I know needs to be done. I have writer's block so instead of being productive I am blogging. Maybe if I type enough I will get over this mental hiccup. Life changes and yet I have adapted... what am I to do with myself? I know what need to do but I have barley started on what I know awaits me. This reminds me of one of the students I dealt with yesterday....very smart, able to manipulate people with his perfect phrasing and hearty apologies but could never deal with the consequences. I feel like that little boy...I'm stuck in reverse and can't find the brake. It is worth it though!!!! I know what I need to know! No lights won't guide me home but the light of the would will guide me home or rather to where I need to be. This semester has been crap but it is not unsalvageable!!! Stuck in this whole I can't see beyond my problem but it is not the worst thing. I have relative health, a job, parents who love me, god friends, a quirky family I am fond of, a car, and a God who loves me so much he dies for me.... I am here for a purpose!!!!! God is strong enough!!!! Fix ME!!!! God would not have brought me here just to fail!! If I never try I won't know what I am capable and instead drown in my own worries...

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11

Here I go, I will now let failure grip me in its vice! I am made of better stuff that this!!!

I'm getting Old

So I'm sitting here in my sister's room and lamenting all time that has past and I'll never be able to recover. I'm getting old and there is nothing I can do about it. I wish that quantum physics could actuallly be proven and that we could actually move backwards.....if only speed of light was actually acheivable. Christmas and my birthday, the twice a year marks where I think on all I regret from the past year. I'm not old my anyone's standards but I already feel that I have lived a lifetime. Mistakes are so fresh and they cut deep because I might have had a chace to reddem myself but blew it.
Ninteen is such a middle age. I'm no longer a teenager but do not have a vast collection of life experiences by which to validate myself. I have not yet lived two decades but I can vote. I don't own a car but can drive....I am at college but have no degree yet. I am at the waiting place as so poetically put by Dr. Suess and I must leave this place for the roads are getting dark and it's becoming depressing. I don't even have to explain that compared to 21...even though I would never do THAT! I did drive all night and I have almost reached my destination, a new age, a new year and almost a new decade....God help me!!!! Here it comes!!!

Good Weird People

Its not that I have anything against weird people its just I tend to have the oddest conversations with people! Once in the elevator a guy tried to make conversation with me by insulting someone else who got on for just a floor than got off but the guy just ended up insulting me! He tried to change is intent but to late, my floor had been reached and he was left stammering for words... weird. Just today, I was making my way across the crosswalk when I had yet another strange encounter with someone. Typically, at this crosswalk there are scores of people attempting to cross at once but this time it was just me and some guy. While waiting for th highly anticipated flashing light man to indicate safe crossing, this guy (or Josh as a later found out his name) was mindlessly singing out loud! No earphones, no ipod, but I did'nt think much of it. I crosses as I do many times a day and once I reached the other side he started conversation. "Hey is your name Laura, you look like a Laura". I stupidly said "no my name is Tabita " the he was like "well you looked like a Laura but Tabita is way cooler". This led to conversation about typical white names such as Sarah, Heather etc. I asked what his name was and like I said earlier it is Josh. I made a dumb comment on how I like his name even though it's pretty common and he said he like his name too. Then he asked for my middle name and one again I stupidly told it to him; Elisabeta. He was like "whoa that is way cooler than your first name!" I asked for his middle name which turned out to be James. This entire time I was walking to the 2nd floor stairs to the MLC and he was just tagging along. After and exchange of middle names I made a comment about his parents naming him after biblical names and then he said my names where from the bible too. As I neared my destination he asked where I was going which I told him and he said he had to go and eat. I said it was nice to meet you he said god bless you and then we split ways. I think he was a Christian. How nice is it to have a random stranger say "God Bless you"! Its so nice and it really brings to mind these verses:
 "When the servant of the man of God rose early in the morning and went out, behold, an army with horses and chariots was all around the city. And the servant said, "Alas, my master! What shall we do?" He said, "Do not be afraid, for those who are with us are more than those who are with them." Then Elisha prayed and said, "O LORD, please open his eyes that he may see." So the LORD opened the eyes of the young man, and he saw, and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha."

-- 2 Kings 6:15-17

It is soooo important to not hide the fact that you are a Christian and to share with others, even in random conversation that you are part of something bigger than all other forces in this world; the Christian body of Christ!!! I pray that where ever this Josh is he knows that his conversation was a blessing and put a smile on my face. :)

First Day Back

Well the spring semester has started. My morning classes went okay.... I was really tired but I'll get used to it. I don't have a choice. I am really hopeful about this semester. It is a semester of new bgings where i can prove my potential despite past confrontations with these materials.  Ms. Kilgore's and Ms. Holt's opinion of my trig and chemistry ability no longer stands and I am able to redfine my skills and my attitude when it comes to math and science. My lit proffessor seems okay, laid back person. She is not very picky and I'm hoping for and A in her class at least. Calc went okay. It is alot of info but I think that I will do okay as long as i stick with it, don't fall behind and ask questions. Waiting for the rest of my books to arrive. I am expecting at least 4 or 5 more.
       Athens is really foggy today. I wish that I could've seen it with all the snow it got last week. I with I could've seen Peter today. Maybe I will. It would be something to look forward to.

A New Year, A Different Choice

I have so many regrets. I regret not telling Someone I am happy that he is saved. I regret that I procrastinate. I regret not being the daughter I could be. I want things to change but I don't wont to change myself. I regret being a coward when i could have made the right choice. the choice where I fulfill my destiny, my future instead of dodging the potential God had given me. I have been given new life and I will do better. My choice needs to start at the top, God.
School starts again next week and i need to focus. I am worried that I may loose HOPE. I can't let this happen. God will help me and I will help myself by putting him first. Who knows, I may become a master chemist after all!