So here I am again. Different year, different state and possibly a changed person but still regressing into the past to lament the passing of time. Here I am in California visiting/working and all I am thinking about is how I am now one year older and my teens are gone. BUT. the future is optomistic. I am slowley starting to look at myself and future with excitment at the potential that I have. Yes I am sure that moving on and growing up can be hard but I am looking forward to being able to prove myself once again....life is a beautiful thing and I am thankful for it even if i forget.
I am thankful for a wonderful family who loves me and sticks my me even when I am completley nuts
I am thankful for the honor of being a child of God and having the privilege to serve and tell others of his love.
I am thankful for the opportunity to work here in California as a caretaker for the elderly. I have learned that the essence of a human being may fade when old age hits home but the humanity and history of every person demands the same respects as any young person who is just know beginning to taste life's vitality and its current endless possibilities. I have the honor of taking care of someone when they during their most critical and vulnerable years by providing them with direct and specific help.
I am thankful for my friends. The people who do not mind that I'll call them in the middle of the night just to vent, the wonderful people who love me, support me and know that I will be me with all my quirks and accept be anyways.
I am thankful for the future. The past may be bleak but the future holds such grand possibilities.
Did I mention I was thankful for my family? I just spent the last couple of minutes reading birthday card from my folks and I can't help but cry.... Distance really does make the heart grow fonder and with the physical distance between us greater than it has ever before I feel closer to them in spirit.
I am thankful for another year of grace that God has given to me so that I might glorify his name and through me show the world that there is only one true God who has given his life for us and gives us the hope of eternal life with him.

I am just happy that this is the day the lord has made and I choose to be happy in it and live my life to the fullest honoring and worshiping God which every breath that he gifts me with.

So I almost officially 20 years old in all of the Continental USA . Happy birthday to me and I pray that God helps me to glorify him and live this year and every year after for his glory.

But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus" - Philippians 3:14