Today is yet another day of procrastination....stress pores out more than sweat... is it worth it??!! I want something to guide me! Take my hand and tell me to do what I know needs to be done. I have writer's block so instead of being productive I am blogging. Maybe if I type enough I will get over this mental hiccup. Life changes and yet I have adapted... what am I to do with myself? I know what need to do but I have barley started on what I know awaits me. This reminds me of one of the students I dealt with yesterday....very smart, able to manipulate people with his perfect phrasing and hearty apologies but could never deal with the consequences. I feel like that little boy...I'm stuck in reverse and can't find the brake. It is worth it though!!!! I know what I need to know! No lights won't guide me home but the light of the would will guide me home or rather to where I need to be. This semester has been crap but it is not unsalvageable!!! Stuck in this whole I can't see beyond my problem but it is not the worst thing. I have relative health, a job, parents who love me, god friends, a quirky family I am fond of, a car, and a God who loves me so much he dies for me.... I am here for a purpose!!!!! God is strong enough!!!! Fix ME!!!! God would not have brought me here just to fail!! If I never try I won't know what I am capable and instead drown in my own worries...
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11
Here I go, I will now let failure grip me in its vice! I am made of better stuff that this!!!
